Closet Confession #4: A Beautiful Book that Reminds Me of My Ugly Past

If you are human, you've made your share of mistakes in your past.  I know I have had my share of them.  While I am not proud of some of the choices I have made; I am happy to know that they have transformed me into a stronger and better person.  I don't do too much revisiting of past memories, sometimes they can be devastatingly painful, some are better left forgotten, but at the same time, there's always a lesson to be learned from such bad decisions.  The ones I do love to revisit are the joyful memories.  Those should stick around forever and tickle the insides of your heart! 

However, I will share with you one of the most ugliest moments of my past (I received a lot of whispers, judgements, and ugly looks from this one- so bear with me and please refrain from throwing your daggers) is when I was involved with a married man.  It was such a complicated time in my life and those who are close to me (back then and now), know what I was going through.  If you've ever been in a situation like this, then you know the emotional turmoil and despair that comes with such an embarrasing ordeal.  If you've never experienced your HEART and your MIND at war, well this is a perfect scenario to experience that.  When I became connected with the social networking site, Facebook, I reconnected with an old school friend who is now a critically-acclaimed author. It came as a surprise to me when I found out that my author friend, Naiomi Pitre, came out with an e-book called, "He Loves Me More, Even Though He's Still Married To Her!"  I just had to sit down and read it.  However, before reading it, I mentally prepared myself for any emotions and feelings that may come up to make my "inner-self" feel like a horrible person again.  I had to remind myself that I once was young and naive and that "LOVE" the powerful emotion that it is, had grabbed a strong hold of me by the collar! 

As I sat down and read my friend's e-book, I couldn't help but nod in agreement at every sensible reaction "the other woman" was feeling.  I saw myself many years back saying and doing the same things.  I found myself justifying my actions and most importantly I was also compromising my own morals and values.  I hated myself for what I was doing behind people's backs but at the same time I was loving the excitement of faraway escapes and late night calls!  This book was meant for me but no, this was not my story; it's just very much like it.  Knowing that, I wondered about this "other woman" in the book.  Where is she now?  Who IS she?  I'm sure we went through similar heartbreaks and breakdowns during this period.  I only wish I would have read this book early on and it probably would have given me some clarity.  Who knows, I may have ended the illicit affair sooner than later.  Eight years ago I started writing a novel based on my story as "the mistress", it has been quite a struggle for me to finish it.  So I found much solace in reading my friend's book.

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“We can never judge the lives of others, because each person knows only their own pain and renunciation. It's one thing to feel that you are on the right path, but it's another to think that yours is the only path.”~ Paul Coelho