Closet Confession #4: A Beautiful Book that Reminds Me of My Ugly Past

If you are human, you've made your share of mistakes in your past.  I know I have had my share of them.  While I am not proud of some of the choices I have made; I am happy to know that they have transformed me into a stronger and better person.  I don't do too much revisiting of past memories, sometimes they can be devastatingly painful, some are better left forgotten, but at the same time, there's always a lesson to be learned from such bad decisions.  The ones I do love to revisit are the joyful memories.  Those should stick around forever and tickle the insides of your heart! 

However, I will share with you one of the most ugliest moments of my past (I received a lot of whispers, judgements, and ugly looks from this one- so bear with me and please refrain from throwing your daggers) is when I was involved with a married man.  It was such a complicated time in my life and those who are close to me (back then and now), know what I was going through.  If you've ever been in a situation like this, then you know the emotional turmoil and despair that comes with such an embarrasing ordeal.  If you've never experienced your HEART and your MIND at war, well this is a perfect scenario to experience that.  When I became connected with the social networking site, Facebook, I reconnected with an old school friend who is now a critically-acclaimed author. It came as a surprise to me when I found out that my author friend, Naiomi Pitre, came out with an e-book called, "He Loves Me More, Even Though He's Still Married To Her!"  I just had to sit down and read it.  However, before reading it, I mentally prepared myself for any emotions and feelings that may come up to make my "inner-self" feel like a horrible person again.  I had to remind myself that I once was young and naive and that "LOVE" the powerful emotion that it is, had grabbed a strong hold of me by the collar! 

As I sat down and read my friend's e-book, I couldn't help but nod in agreement at every sensible reaction "the other woman" was feeling.  I saw myself many years back saying and doing the same things.  I found myself justifying my actions and most importantly I was also compromising my own morals and values.  I hated myself for what I was doing behind people's backs but at the same time I was loving the excitement of faraway escapes and late night calls!  This book was meant for me but no, this was not my story; it's just very much like it.  Knowing that, I wondered about this "other woman" in the book.  Where is she now?  Who IS she?  I'm sure we went through similar heartbreaks and breakdowns during this period.  I only wish I would have read this book early on and it probably would have given me some clarity.  Who knows, I may have ended the illicit affair sooner than later.  Eight years ago I started writing a novel based on my story as "the mistress", it has been quite a struggle for me to finish it.  So I found much solace in reading my friend's book.

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“We can never judge the lives of others, because each person knows only their own pain and renunciation. It's one thing to feel that you are on the right path, but it's another to think that yours is the only path.”~ Paul Coelho

I've been MIA but I'm back with some new things to share...

Okay, well I've been hibernating for a few days, relaxing and filling up my literary food tank.  Just completed a couple of great books this past week (both fiction and non-fiction).  If you know me, you know that I love all things related to beauty and fashion and I am a strong believer that true beauty comes from within yourself.  The outside appearance is just the icing on the cake or to put it another way- a great book with an eye-catching front jacket cover.  What better way to develop on your inner beauty by feeding yourself knowledge and stories you can learn from.  Reading a fantastic book feeds the soul and can transform you from within.  Needless to say it's also a great way to relax.

I completed "Why We Want You To Be Rich" by Robert Kiyosaki and Donald Trump in one week.  Let me first say, that Kiyosaki's book "Rich Dad, Poor Dad" changed my way of thinking back in 2006.  This is when I decided to start my own business.  I was determined to make my own wealth and start paying myself instead of making my employer rich.  So when a friend of mine (Naiomi Pitre) recommended to me another Kiyosaki book, I jumped on it right away.  And wow, the book gave me more insight than before on financial education.  The one thing that still puzzles me to this day is why our schools aren't teaching our kids who are technically "on their own" at the young age of 18 to have this financial knowledge under their belts as soon as they graduate.  Perhaps it's all a conspiracy of the government so that people of society are clueless to the fact that our country will be broke by the time the Baby Boomers will start retiring (which is now) and the "Social Security Wallet" will be dried out and empty.  Also when our children become adults this country will be in serious financial trouble (as we are seeing now).  Hmmm...Anyway I highly recommend this book so you can get an idea of where we (our country) are headed, if we are not already there now.  Boost your Financial IQ!!! It's worth it.

So after reading that book, I decided I'd take some down time and enjoy something else on a different level.  I love poems (reading and writing them, I usually write when I have time to ponder on a few things) so I ordered Naiomi Pitre's "How Nasty Is Too Nasty" CD- a collection of erotic Spoken Word poems performed by the artist herself.  It's quite romantic and soulful.  (It's perfect to listen to with your significant other- if you know what I mean!)  Later, I turned to her book, "In The Panty Drawer- Journey into a Mind of a Sexual Woman" which were a collection of short stories and poems.  And let me tell you, it is raw passion at it's finest!  I enjoyed it very much and completed it in a day.  I suggest you take a peak here.  Naiomi Pitre is a very talented unique author.  I also highly recommend her as your one of your bedside books. 

I'd love to know what you thought after reading these books, feel free to leave comments or email me.

Your innerself may be asking for a make-over!
HUgz *

Closet Confession #1: I'm such a geek & a closet-cynic

Here's my very first confession: yes, I am a Geek!  Also deep-down somewhere I found myself to be a closet-Cynic.  (Although this may not be something that I'm proud to admit.)  Read more and you'll see why.

Over this past weekend I ventured on a trip to my local bookstore to buy a Robert Kiyosaki book that my author-friend recommended and while taking a quiet moment to myself on one of the bookstore's randomly located leather chairs.  I came across a humorous book that captured my undivided attention.  About 3 minutes into the book, I found myself chuckling at the oh-so-true observations of this little yellow book called Go Tweet Yourself by Janelle Randazza.  A funny book about Facebookers, Myspacers, Twitters, and all the other Online Social Networker groups (i.e. bloggers, LinkedIn socialites, etc) that we all fall into!  Oh yes, I am guilty of falling prey to pretty much all of those categories at some point or another or at least I've made a login ID in the past with the intention of actually being a member of those sites.  But, hey my optimism was what led me to sign up with some strange notion that my life would be somehow fulfilled by doing so. 

The book is a summation of all the quirky things that people do or don't do and just straight up laughing about it (Enough is Enough: We don't want to see pictures from your business trip to Omaha.  We don't want to see what that random girl from study group is having for breakfast. And we certainly don't want a virtual drink) yeah- give me a real drink, darnnit!  And I have made similar observations myself, but never really came out in public like Randazza has.  I guess that makes me somewhat of a cynic, right? 

In my hopes to share my fascination with my husband, I did my best in explaining the humor I found in the book, he throws me this strange look and classifies me as a full-fledged Geek!  Okay, I will declare to that affirmation.  If anything, I had a few good laughs and enjoyed my weekend being anti-social! 

Let's laugh off some of that misery! hahahaha